Tonight my mother-in-law brought over blueberry muffins that she made yesterday. I appreciate the thought. I'd probably also appreciate the flavor. But after splurging a bit this week at my girls' run tonight (two chocolate desserts... :z) and eating away from home Monday and Tuesday, I'm not certain that they'd be the best choice for me right now. If I'd made them myself and had leftovers, this wouldn't be such an issue--I'd toss them. But something is keeping me from doing that to these muffins. Perhaps I will just freeze them individually and enjoy one as a treat sometime later. Maybe I'll share them with my mom for breakfast tomorrow.
But this can't be the last time someone is going to gift us with food. How do I grow a backbone and start telling people up front that we eat clean? How to handle the implications that the food is "dirty" since, if I eat clean, it doesn't fit the parameters? I'm such a newbie that I'd still feel like a big dork (or, as my mom stated semi-jokingly last week, a food snob) explaining my lifestyle and why it works. There are some people who just wouldn't get it. It would be taken personally. And then I'd be [even more] guilted into eating things that really don't make me feel (or look) my best.
Eating clean has made such a difference in my appearance and health that I'd love to start telling people just *what* is making me look "so good" (a friend's words) and "pretty skinny" (my mom's statement) but I hesitate for some reason. I've chosen to wimp out and lamely say "I've been eating differently" but that's not really the whole story. Clean eating is a good thing. So why am I being weird and sneaky about it?
And what do I do with those muffins?